Wednesday, June 03, 2009

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my day started off like any other. Phone alarm woke me up. Thought about all the things i have to do. Spent a few minutes thinking whether my zebra print or tri colour zara shoes matched my outfit better. Went to the office. Was so happy there was hardly any jam. Went for a meeting. Didn't get what i was hoping for from meeting so started thinking of alternative plans of action to make things happen. ..

i was just starting to feel hungry for lunch when my good friend called me.

"his daughter died today...."

.... I just sat in my chair trying to think. What? How? WHY????!!!

Of course, there are no good answers to any of those questions...

So I had to go to a funeral and watch a devastated and heartbroken family bury a 4 year old child who died in a tragic accident. The mother wouldn't let go of her daughter's body which delayed the burial. And the father who always looks like he is on top of the world sobbed.

Some things you just can't control... Death really is one of the things that unites us all. Rich or poor, we all have to face the tragedy, agony and grief of it all....

I hate it... I really do.... I wish i could live the rest of my life without ever having to go to another funeral. But that is just not going to happen, is it?

Walking through the graves just made me remember yet again that no matter how invincible and untouchable someone may be, they are not. There is always God.

As I looked around at all of the sad faces at the funeral, it was obvious that everyone was thinking the same things.

And just like it always has, the sun rose again today and we have to go on. I wonder what for sometimes......

Al - Fatihah.....

2 comments:

Da' daffodil D said...

al fatihah..

V said...

Death is always close by. It is almost like your shadow. You may be aware, you may not be aware, but it follows you from the first moment of your life to the very last moment. Death is a process just as life is a process, and they are almost together, just like two wheels of a bullock cart. Life cannot exist without death; neither can death exist without life.

Our minds have an insane desire: we want only life and not death. We don’t look at the existential truth, we always cling to our own insane desire. Any desire that goes against nature is insane. And this desire is in almost every living creature, not only human beings. Even the trees are afraid of death, but trees can be forgiven. They are not conscious beings, they are only unconscious – fast asleep.

But you are a little bit awake: you can sense the presence of death. Hence the possibility opens for a deeper understanding, that life and death are all together, two extremes of one energy. Life is the active force and death is the inactive force. Life is the positive electricity and death is the negative electricity, but they cannot be separated.

Life is an opportunity. Death is the end of the rope. If you understand death your life will become intense and total. But instead of understanding death, you become overwhelmed by it. Hence the heart starts trembling with fear. And fear is not going to help at all, fear is going to cloud your mind even more. Out of fear, there has never been any understanding.

So whenever you feel fear, it is a tremendous opportunity to understand that life is momentary, it is ephemeral, it is made of the same stuff as dreams are made of. How real the dream looks when you are asleep – in fact, more real than your experiences when you are awake. You may never have thought about it, but while you are awake you can doubt: “Perhaps what I am seeing may be just a dream.” I may be a dream, you may be a dream, this whole communion may be happening just as a dream. Soon you will be awake and you will find, “My God! It was just a dream.”